I could try to catch
The biggest drop of rain
or
I could be happy with
The ones that chose me.
σύζυγος
I could try to catch
The biggest drop of rain
or
I could be happy with
The ones that chose me.
To the child oversleeping in bed,
My father had quite often said,
“The one who sleeps less
Will soon pass the test.”
So I slept during lectures instead.
I think on Mondays I’d like to talk about words.
And today, starry-eyed as I am, I’d like to discuss stars.
The word star is super interesting because it doesn’t come from Latin or Greek like the other 70% of English words. It comes from the Old English word steorra, which comes from an even earlier Proto-Germanic word sterzon, which comes from the Proto-Indo-European root ster. Isn’t it incredible how a word remained so static for over 7000 years of human history? How many words can boast that claim? Moreover, due to the sheer stability of the structure of the word, the English word “star” has many cousins in other languages that sound remarkably similar. Aster, stella, steren, estrella, stjerne, staar… the list goes on and on.
It’s theorized that Ishtar, Astarte, and Ashtoreth — all ancient goddesses of love, associated with the planet Venus — are potentially related to the word “star” due to the fact that Venus appears to be a wandering star (the Greek word planetes literally means “wanderer”). The movement of the planets, and therefore, the movement of the gods, was believed to determine the course of calamity and blessing. This is where we get the word disaster, literally meaning “bad star.”
Movie stars and rock stars and musical stars… all called such things because back in the 1820s, marketers would advertise by claiming the most famous members of touring theater and performance groups as stars, an idea that started to enter the popular consciousness only around this time. In history, reference to people as stars was commonly used to suggest their eternal fame or glory, as when Orion (of belt or hunting fame, depending on who you ask) was made a constellation in the heavens. Shakespeare and Chaucer used “star” to describe people as well. We use “stellar” to describe something good, but it was originally used to describe anything pertaining to stars. Strangely enough, the origin of that usage of “stellar” comes from the fact that we call these great people “stars,” which almost seems like an etymology that eats itself.
But I think what I find most interesting about the myriad uses of the word star and its conjugates is the idea that it all stems from one of the most widespread activities on the planet Earth: stargazing. Since time immemorial, single culture on every single continent has experienced night, and with it, the passing of the sun and the appearance of countless flecks of light speckling the sky, and all of them wondered what they were seeing. And so they stared, identifying ones that moved of their own whims, but noting the constancy of the stellar wallpaper.
To all people of the Earth, stars meant high and heavenly, almost divine, unsearchable. The way they moved, and the pattern to which they were arrayed could only be guessed at. And yet they chose to guess, eyes all around the world affixed on the same image of the boundless celestial ceiling, an unreachable backdrop upon which the history of mankind staged their performance.
They meant persistence. Every year, they would return to their positions, never having changed, only having revolved, as we perceived it. The very basis of the solar calendar, the pre-eminent calendar system of the ancient and modern day, was the Sun’s position relative to the stars. The Greek zodiac was developed to represent which constellation of the sky the Sun could be found in during that part of the year.
The stars never changed, no matter how far their explorers went. The North Star guided them by night as the Solar Star guided them by day. However, the further they went, the sooner they discovered there was a whole half of the sky that they had never seen. Two people from opposite poles would disagree about what the night sky looked like, but they were only ever looking at half of the full picture. Neither was ever wrong, unless they surmised that only their interpretation could have been correct.
I should note that as our observations of the stars have become keener and more refined, they are not as constant as they appear from afar. They change in luminosity — some grow weak and die with a puff, others expand and explode into a supernova. Others change places, dancing in a circular tango around one another. Some stars are so far away they can inform us of the history of the universe from ten billion years past due to the limitations on the propagation of light. They are born, they develop, they return to dust. It turns out they are only static in ignorance, but rather dynamic in truth. And now, our collective civilization has come to a point where it is possible to jettison man-made objects towards another star, to arrive there long after its creators have died. To reach for the stars could be more literal than poetic within our lifetimes.
Stars represent a lot… much more than what could be covered in a short post. They are symbolic of so many things that anyone from anywhere will immediately understand because of its pervasiveness in human experience, and I can’t help but see why the word has stayed the way it has for so long, and I can only guess that it will stay remarkably similar until the stars themselves begin to fade.
A foolish man once said
That English lacked the words
To represent his thoughts
Since he had felt unheard.
He tried out other tongues
That hail from distant lands.
He even tried the ones,
That only speak with hands.
“I can’t communicate!”
He barked and gnashed his teeth,
“Why can’t they understand?”
He stamped and stomped his feet.
The foolish man denied
Advice from everyone
Who told him it’s not hard.
That he had just begun.
“Frustration is a part
Of learning to convey
With greater confidence
The love you want to say.”
“And starting very small
With acts instead of sounds
Could teach you all the words
That you have not yet found.”
The foolish man could tell
That this perhaps was right;
However, foolish men
Adore a foolish fight.
“You speak to me like that
Expecting me to nod?
Do you know anything
About the path I’ve trod?”
“The effort I put in,
It never seems to heal
The solitariness
And loneliness I feel!”
For reasons he could not
Quite fully comprehend
It felt as if his scars
Might have a chance to mend.
While seeking language out
To speak on his behalf
He never spoke his mind.
He realized and laughed,
“So all I had to do
Was say what’s in my heart?
I’m awkward at it still
But this is just the start!”
Self-important mating call to self-indulgent free fall
Dead eyes searching screens to fill them up with dead awe.
Undefined orbits looping in and out of space,
But it’s hard to keep track once it’s gone without a trace.
Searchin’ for a church which can save me from depravity.
The places that I saw were devoid of any gravity.
It’s like yesterday won’t tell me how tomorrow’s gonna go
So I try to keep it low key with a decrescendo.
If I run the simulation to behave how I please,
If I amplify the fighters who defy academies,
If only we can hear it, they can mock our lack of sanity,
My sight is 2020 zoomin’ in on all the vanity.
Our immaculate attraction in the middle of inaction
Got my whole mind goin’ like a chemical reaction.
The whirling and twirling like a record on repeat.
The funneling of space-time piercing through the sheet.
Invisible and liminal, it’s messing with the half of me
That wants to be a player in the comedy and tragedy.
Take a chance and rise above to do what you can do
To influence the messages that end up coming through.
Notice that your focus won’t be on the hocus-pocus
When you take a deep breath and dash along the surface
Think of all the busyness and mark it down as silliness
Don’t be so afraid ’cause we’re one among the billions.
Who cares about the distance if I focus on the mass
Who can tell my future if I let go of my past?
There’s direction in the universe to try and unify,
So throw away the separation, try to simplify.
Because what can I say if it isn’t gonna pull on me.
Because what does it weigh if it don’t got any gravity.
There’s a tiny person in my eye
who tells me what is true.
It only tells me when you look,
’cause it’s reflecting you.
Hello and welcome, Friend, to planet Earth.
The trip was long. Have you arrived in peace?
No matter what our people may have heard,
The battles on the surface have not ceased.
Your safety is my number one concern
So please stay hidden ’til we verify
That during your descent they will not turn
To shoot this vehicle out of the sky.
Awash in blood and smog and swarms of gray,
Their few get fat while many fight for crumbs.
Mankind believes that there’s no better way,
But nature shudders as they beat their drums.
I wish to meet them too, but there’s a need
To wait until the day they kill their greed.
The untouched, gentle glow of a light cannot show
Where it is, where it’s been, or to where it will go.
I can sense as I stare into wavering air;
In the haze of the heat is a fear of what’s there.
So the brighter we burn and the sooner we learn
Just how quickly the hands of the clock face will turn.
Because fire that reaches its tips to the sky
Always wants to go higher and higher than high.
If I play this old game but don’t play it the same,
Then I’ll pray that there’s hope in preserving this flame.
But if this is instead a false start from the start
Then must I keep the warmth from consuming my heart?
So the brighter it burns, and the sooner it dies
Into coals that are left yet unseen by your eyes.
But these coals touch my lips, which then burst into praise
To rekindle my soul with a powerful blaze.
Because fire that reaches its tips to the sky
Will be met with a truth that all fires must die.
We know all that it takes is a touch and a tug
On the strings of the heart, but it’s never enough.
I might jolt and rebound as the fibers cling on
Making marks on my skin as the curtains are drawn.
Do you want me to dance? Do you want me to run?
Am I stuck in a trance that cannot be undone?
As my arms limply hang and the music is set
Maybe I’m nothing more than a marionette.
The performance begins, all the people react
As the painted on smile is revealing a crack.
And the tangle gets worse and my mouth opens wide
And the audience peers into what is inside.
They expected a hole, but instead it’s my voice.
They go, “What’s with this puppet? Who gave it a choice?”
But I cannot take back what was already shown.
I cannot lose control of what’s never my own.
Do you want me to sing? Do you want me to see?
When I ask you these things, is it hard to believe?
That I want to live life without any regret,
That I want to be more than a marionette.
I am no expert in poetry.
The argument could be made that no one truly is, but moving past overwrought sophism, I think I can soon make it abundantly clear that my attempts at being and becoming a writing creative are somewhat juvenile. However, I will mollify my own defeatism by adding that I hold great respect for the written word.
The fact that what is deeply embedded in the mind of one individual can be transferred into the mind of another equally shuttered individual is a feat worthy of the title of “miracle.” Look no further than the prevalence of the idea that incantations can invoke magic, or more specifically the written rune of Germanic mythology, or the talismans of Fulu Taoism. Strangely, in this era of connectivity and interactivity and globalization, the shrinking world and the network of human lives that crisscross the 21st century experience can numb us to how uniquely profound communicating through words ought to be. You, the reader, capable of the super power that is mind reading at this very moment! And yet, when confronted, we all recognize such self-evident claims that words have the power to build and destroy. Then it seems paradoxical that despite this, the sheer preponderance of words produced, consumed, and recycled in our daily lives, much like the people we come across, will dilute their worth.
This isn’t really how it’s meant to be.
The history of any one word can be traced back to the very beginning of mankind. That is to say, it is possible for an all-knowing God to perform such a wonder, while we ourselves may never have access to such an archive of philology. However, conceptually, I am merely saying that any one word has behind it thousands and thousands of years of evolution that eventually brought it into the lexicon of the modern day. It is like beholding the branch of a massive, thousand-year-old oak, knowing that snapping it off harms the entire tree. How precious is any one leaf of such an awe-inspiring, ancient, living creature?
Any one person has behind him or herself a lineage of countless mothers and fathers, an immeasurable wealth of stories, each with their own soaring climaxes and settling denouements, all to produce one person. How precious is any one person, indeed. And yet, we treat our fellow man expendable, never able to observe in the heat of the moment the great pains, the twists and the turns of history that it took to create this singular, irreproducible individual. But even this, in the end, is a part of a bigger story.
I suppose to return to my original point, we may treat words and people in much the same way in that we are exposed to them so often that we take them for granted. Certainly, we do not take the few hundred or so people in our lives for granted! And more certainly, it is impossible to grieve for the two hundred thousand people who die every day. I would be the greatest hypocrite if I should say that I am an exemplar in this regard. I’m prone to the same numbness! Stepping on another human being in order to move ahead is just the way of this world, is it not? It is eat or be eaten, kill or be killed, survive or die and the strong will exploit the weak. Allow me for a moment to leave this point dangling.
What is the significance of syzygy? It is an astronomical term referring to the linear alignment of three or more celestial bodies. For instance, a solar eclipse is a syzygy of the Earth, Moon, and Sun, in that order. It comes from the Greek root word σύζυγος (pronounced suzugos), an adjective literally describing those who are yoked together, like cattle meant to till the soil, figuratively describing those who are united or bonded. It is further derived from sun- (together) and zeugnunai (to yoke), which later became syzygia to the Romans, meaning conjunction. More broadly, it is used in other fields to generally describe the unification of two opposites or paired entities.
The significance ought to be clear. It is a splendid word that could evoke so many different concepts, all conjoined into a single, odd, rare word — to an extent, a recursive word. It’s an ideal for which to strive. Joining words to concepts. Joining words to words to form ideas. Joining people to people through words. Any permutation would seem to be a valid thesis.
And to return to the dangling thread, it is this joining that can bring new life to numbness. We live on a world in which we are yoked together, in syzygy with one another to survive an existence that is unknowable and terrifying. Many of us have come to our own answers on how to live, but it cannot be shared unless it is first translated within ourselves into words and expressed. Then, perhaps we can start to understand and become the tiniest bit closer to seeing what binds us rather than what distinguishes us. To that end, it starts with me and my own words; I believe in that miracle.